despite being exceptionally exhausted from dancing almost everyday this week, i've probably had one of the most beautiful weeks ever with the guy i love most. for the 1st time this year, we got to see each other almost every day of the week. it was simply amazing. from supper at adam rd or yassin to our numerous trips to sim lim square to sipping on our customary red wine at Villa Bali to putting up his christmas tree or even just bumming at his place taking turns to play Need for Speed. it was great only cuz it happened with him. it's funny how i assumed before that if we were to approach our one year mark, i would have grown utterly uninterested and bored of this relationship and now, it seems to have all turned out the exact opposite. i still get those butterflies in my tummy when i see a msg from him or when he calls, exactly how things were like when we first started going out. we've grown so much closer over these past few days. it truly is beautiful.
this weekend's gonna be ultra special to me. not only am i having a massive house party on friday, it's also gonna be me and my charlie boy's 11 months. i'm pretty bummed out that both my bestfriend and my boyfriend can't be present for my 18th party. but it's ok, you guys will be with me at heart. like ya'll have always been. christmas for me this year is gonna be alot different from all the other years. for the 1st time, i've someone i'm so in love with to share this day with. usually my boyfriends never last till christmas. haha.
my baby boy's booking back into camp in exactly 6 hours. i'm gonna miss him so much. hopefully i'll be too pre-occupied with preparing for tuesday's performance and friday's party to notice this sudden void. things are looking so much brighter for us. i don't just love you. there's so much more to it.
I think about your face, and how I fall into your eyes
The outline that I trace, around the one that I call mine
A time that called for space, unclear where you drew the line
I don't need to solve this case, and I don't need to look behind
Do I expect to change the past I hold inside
With all the words I say repeating over in my mind
Some things you can't erase, no matter how hard you try
An exit to escape is all there is left to find
I need to let go of this pride
Until this echo in my mind
Until this echo can subside
Close my eyes, let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time to waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side...
im in a dilemma at 12:30 AM