my ballet exam was disastrous! me and my brilliant idea of not having dinner (the night before) and breakfast before my exam. i could have freaking rolled over and died cuz i was all out of energy by the time we were 15 mins into it (the exam took an hour and a half mind you). everything was just bad - my balance, my turns, MY STEPS! oh god. i've been doing the same fucking syllabus for 2 years and then suddenly everything just started to slip my mind. argh! totally frustrating. on top of that, i had this fucking bitch in my group who was so full of attitude, i felt like taking my pointe shoes off and throwing it at her face! maybe then she would look better. and after we left the studio she was like "i know i'm not gonna fail but i'm not sure about my distinction". fucking hell!! she fucking sucked ass!!! she was SO much worse than me AND she's got an oddly shaped body!!!! she was like half bird half alien. argh. bitch. hate her.
despite all the mishaps that's been going on, i finally have something to look forward to. thursday. firstly, my freaking prelims would be over. secondly, i'm gonna meet my darling bitches and thirdly, my charlie boy's coming out=) gonna spend the entire night with him and might probably stay over at his place. i seriously can't wait to get back in touch with my social life. the next 3 days are gonna feel like a lifetime. so close yet so far.
The things you do
Keep me sprung
Keep me running back to you
im in a dilemma at 3:37 PM