i started saturday off by going down to my study room to get some work done. i managed to clear up some of my overdue assignments and then headed upstairs to get ready for ballet. god, it's been ages since i've gone. i headed home after and then dropped by dan ryan's for a bit to have a chat with debo. bo, i really miss post-O'level days:( . i went to meet shalzinie after for some drinking at Desire. it was just gonna be the 2 of us cuz it's been ages since we've had a proper conversation. Desire was pretty shit cuz they have no fucking seats unless you buy a bottle. argh! i've never stood in the same spot in a club for so long. VJ was suppose to come at 1 and then i was suppose to head over to charlie's place after he was done jonging but as indian timing goes, VJ came at 2 and baby was tired of waiting up for me so i let him sleep and went home.
yesterday i went for dinner at Hooters with charles and his friends cuz it was Mark's birthday. it wasn't as akward as i thought it would be. i guess it's just a matter of getting use to. as part of the birthday celebration, the Hooters' girls dressed Mark up as one of them complete with make up. he looked like a drag queen. haha. evangeline was working that night but unfortunately, we couldn't get a discount of any sort tho the guys did get a hell of a view everytime she bent down to talk to me. haha. after Hooters, we all drove down to Liquid Kitchen at Serangoon Gardens for some beer. the girls left after a bit so i was stuck with the 5 guys. we finished our beers and Mark dropped charles and i at charles' place. we chilled out there and had probably one of the closest things to a heartfelt conversation. the last time i remember doing this was christmas with the aid of some alcohol. i dunno, i guess there's just something comforting about lying in bed in near-darkness with our only source of light coming from the corridor outside. we spoke about alot of stuff and of course there were times when i got pissed off but in the end it was all good, as always. i think we're beginning to understand each other more and that's why we're starting to fight a lot less now over petty things. things are actually working out for the both of us. i guess all we really needed was just time.
you don't give me what i want......but what i need
im in a dilemma at 3:18 PM