.temperamental bitch.

Saturday, April 08, 2006

i've been sick the past couple of days. got some stupid tonsil inflammation thing which causes me to get a fever at the weirdest times. i really wanna remove em but apparently it may cause me to get sinus or some crap like that. well anyway, i've been trying to keep myself busy by studying considering common tests are in a week. it's not exactly going very well but i've managed to stop bumming around my room for starters. hopefully i'll be able to get my 3 A levels passes this time*crosses fingers*. went shopping with my sweet darlings, estaa and fan yesterday. i don't know what i'll ever do without them. they seriously make my day and give me the most valuable advice. shopping wasn't exactly very fruitful cuz we were rushing from place to place cuz i had to go at 7:30 for penitential service. i ended up leaving with one pair of earrings. ah well. i met liz at church yesterday. she's so bloody adorable and boy do we talk about the weirdest things in church. haha. ok i'm gonna get some econs done.

Sometimes I think about everything that we've been through
And I pray that you would just open your eyes
I love you
And I need you
So please dont throw our love away

Since the day you and I snuck away to be alone
I knew from that night something special went on
It must have been the first kiss, you told me that
Nobody else in the world made you feel this
I felt the same way too, but nothing stays the same
Im sorry for the tears
Im sorry for the pain
You were the one that always made things right
I promise you this though you got a friend for life
Maybe one day we can try it again
And maybe things can be a little different
So lets just kiss and say goodbye
Cuz I really cant stand the pain to seeing you cry

I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me

All that is mine is yours thats what I said
Treat you with love and respect in every way
You want it, I gave you, you need me, I was there
Now you treat me like if I'm not here
I loved you
I need you, dont wanna let go
If you want somebody else please let me know
Can't take it no more
I feel Im dyin inside
Is this the price I pay for handing you my life?
I know I'm not perfect but I truly cared
So if you wake up one morning and Im not there
Just remember I loved you, it will never be the same
Gave you everything and you threw it all away

I gave you my good and my bad, my heart and my soul
My trust, my money, my time, what more could you ask
From a man even when times were hard
I held out my arms
And held you and even accepted you through whatever weather
But now I feel it we're at the end of the road
Whatever we had now I gotta let go
Nights like this I wish rain drops would fall to cover my tears
Wishing I could replace all those wasted years of loving someone
Who couldn't love me back and now again
I gotta start from scratch but I know I've given you my everything

*courtesy of fanny's blog

im in a dilemma at 11:32 AM