stacey's leaving in 5 days. i can't believe it...it's less than a week! i know ya'll are like "it's only 9 and a half months. she'll be back before you know it" but you just don't understand. she's more than just my best friend, she's my sister. we do everything together and she's probably one of the few people i can count on to always be there...and now she's leaving me. we've grown up together since the first day of Primary 1. from all those ridiculous fights in primary school about who's friends with who to meeting at our Farrer Market playground in the middle of the night for a smoke and a good cry. we've seriously been there for each other through everything and now they're taking my little girl away.
who's gonna take care of you if you get into a fight with your "mum"? who am i suppose to call on when my heart breaks? who are you gonna tell all your most embarassing moments to? who am i suppose to have my spa day with? who's house are you gonna go to for thursday's chicken curry? who am i to call on for lemon barley and meng kee fried rice at the market? who are you gonna sing your out of tune songs with? who am i suppose to have tapioca chips and apple juice with when i swim? who's coffee table are you gonna put your socks under? who are we gonna celebrate our much talked about 18th birthday with?
there's just so much to miss out on over these 9 and a half months and i don't know if i can handle it. i'm gonna miss you so much stace. there's no word in the English dictionary that will be able to describe how i'll be feeling when you're gone. loneliness? nah...it goes way beyond that but till the day you return, i'll be waiting for that little rat face of yours to appear at my door to give me my long awaited squish. don't worry tubby, when you get back, we'll celebrate all our 18th birthday's which you missed out on and we'll have the future we always planned: our Europe trip, being neighbours, our husbands being best friends, our children being best friends etc. be strong penelope and make sure you write, call, email, smoke signals whatever just to let me know you're ok. i love you moses.
Listen little child, there will come a day
When you will be able, able to say
Never mind the pain, or the aggravation
You know there's a better way, for you and me to be
Look for a rainbow in every storm
Fly like an angel, heaven sent to me
Goodbye my friend (I know you're gone, you said you're gone,but I can still feel you here)
It's not the end (gotta keep it strong before the painturns into fear)
So glad we made it, time will never change it
Just a little girl, big imagination
Never letting no-one take it away
Went into the world, what a revelation
She found there's a better way for you and me to be
Look for a rainbow in every storm
Find out for certain, love's gonna be there for you
You'll always be someone's baby
The times when we would play about
The way we used to scream and shout
We never dreamt you'd go your own sweet way
You know it's time to say goodbye
And don't forget you can rely
I will help you on your way
I will be with you every day
im in a dilemma at 12:42 PM