this world's an ugly place...
but you're so beautiful...
to me

Sunday, March 05, 2006

my mood swings have gotten a lot worse now. i swear, it's like a freaking emotional rollercoaster. one minute i can be all "happy happy joy joy" and next i'm like "get out of my face"...which brings me to my sincere apology to yunfan. FAN FAN!!! i'm so sorry about friday!! i really didn't mean to hurt you. it was completely unintentional. forgive me? i really don't know what's wrong with me this year. i seem to have lost my "don't worry, be happy" attitude. i'm upset almost every other day and i just can't control it. maybe it's the fact that my grades are utterly horendous or that my love life is heading to the shits or that my bestfriend's leaving me in exactly 17 days. i think it's a combination of all 3. everything's fucking up before my very eyes and i don't even have the strength to make right what i can. march hols are in a week. thank god. i really need the much deserved break to sort myself out and start the new term afresh. i can't keep going on like this for the rest of the year. it'll just kill me. literally...my worst enemy? the thoughts in my head.

*we, we who were, we are the same no longer*

So long ago, I don't remember when
That's when they said I lost my only friend
Well, they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
As I listened through the cemetery trees

I've seen the sun comin' up at the funeral at dawn
With the long broken arm of human law
Now, it always seemed such a waste
She always had a pretty face
I wonder why she hung around this place

Come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me and Cinderella
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight

She said it's cold
It feels like Independence Day
And I can't break away from this parade
But there's got to be an opening
Somewhere here in front of me
Through this maze of ugliness and greed
And I've seen the sun up ahead
At the county line bridge
Sayin' all is good and nothingness is dead
We'll run until she's out of breath
She ran until there's nothin' left
She hit the end, it's just her window ledge

Well, this place is old
It feels just like a beat up truck
I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn
Well, it smells of cheap wine and cigarettes
This place is always such a mess
Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn
I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else
I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
But somewhere here in between the city walls of dyin' dreams
I think your death, it must be killin' me...



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Name: Tanya N.
D.O.B: 23rd December '88
Sign: Capricorn
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