im in a dilemma at 8:20 PM
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so the rumours are true. tim and i have broken up but i wouldn't say completely cuz by status, we're not together but everything else seems to be about the same. it's so confusing. it's like i'm torn between 2 sides, half of me wants to be with him while the other wants to move on. honestly, i don't know which half to listen to. it's like one minute i listen to one side and the next i listen to the other. i seriously don't know what to do cuz i seriously don't know what i want. he doesn't want me to go yet he's not giving me a reason to stay but yet i still wanna stay and i also wanna go. make sense? nahhhh...thought so. why can't there just be one logical solution or why couldn't have things just been perfect between us so there wouldn't even have been a problem to begin with. well we did sort of come up with a solution: start anew as friends and see where it takes us. not exactly the brightest of ideas but i guess it'll have to do for now. to completely cut each other out of our lives is unthinkable cuz it's not like we gravely hurt each other in any way. maybe things would have turned out for the better if either of us were willing to change but we've both got this fixed mindset and nothing either of us says or does can budge it. plus, what kind of girlfriend would i be if i asked him to change his character? shouldn't he find someone who's better suited for him? after all, we're suppose to accept our other half for who they are right?
im in a dilemma at 8:20 PM
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